I have been on a very long arduous journey exploring the inner realms of self. So deeply committed I am to this path that I cannot lose the dream of creating abundance. There is a stage that I have reached on the journey thus far that I wish to share. I have always had this understanding of an existence of a world that can be accessed but its confirmation is in reflection through others. Since a very early age I have always been able to feel into people around me on deep emotional levels. I have heard about this ego that exists within us all, and done extensive research to understand what it is composed of. I have the deep conviction that by dissolving ego will expose a world that is of infinite nature that transcends death, suffering, separation, which is the essence of eternal celebration.
From an early age I have been aware that what I see with my eyes is not the truth. I have also come to understand that I am responsible for creating this paradise by healing myself from within. If I do witness truth I get confirmation by means of a feeling in my heart centre.
What is fuelling this web of lies (consensus reality) is an impostor. What gives this impostor power is deep-seated fear of abandonment, separation from the eternal source of all that is. This fear drives a mind to become something other than an authentic self doing, rather than being. I have for many years felt like I am surrounded by masks and fortresses, from brothers and sisters surrounding me. I feel that I am being denied the right to see myself as divinity through this process. Now to bring this back to myself and take responsibility.
Even though somebody says to me they are happy I see divine light within them obscured by a tainted veil of illusion. This brings to me a sense of great sadness, as I feel separate in this experience. The fortress, the mask I see is my own. I deny myself to myself, as I have been a fragmented polluted consciousness. I am glad that I have been able to see this, because my life has been about exiting the prison. I am not here to make myself home in a web of lies and deceit. The greatest threat to the ego's survival is self-love and this an internal process.
I have had a very strong connection of what I felt was the ultimate love in my life and that my search had ended. There were conflicting belief systems moving between them and myself and I wanted to be accepted for what I believed. I could clearly see that here was someone I was deeply in love with who could not embrace the very essence of my being. The key here is that this person was an external mirror that was denying my ability to believe in what I knew was a truth that I would eventually disseminate throughout the world. This is when I had to make a decision to break the connection. Once I had broken the connection a very deep and painful experience manifested of abandonment, rejection and deep remorse, my heart shattered. The situation was an unpleasant one but yet this had to be confronted within myself and healed. This is not a selfish agenda being portrayed here, this is a catalyst for connections to happen on deep levels with people who all share a need to transcend to higher states of being and exit the program. This is a powerful key. When you face and heal a deep issue within yourself that is held in collective consciousness this will be a bridge of connection for those in the future, where a collective vision of oneness and true community will be realized. This is your key into the world of abundance as unpleasant as it may appear to be.
There are people in our lives who seem to love us but there are expectations so therefore the love is conditional. Usually I have found these expectations are based around limiting belief systems. These belief systems require validation because ultimately, they are being driven by an undercurrent, which directly links to ego and thus the fear of abandonment. To love someone unconditionally is to be true to yourself and set them free from expectations of either yourself or you of them. True love is a self-generated state and requires only a direct connection to source energy and has nothing to do with anyone else.
Moving beyond masks and fortresses I am disabling my own constructs. When people can expose to you their vulnerabilities you will be accessing what I call the golden storehouse of abundance. If you are encountering people who choose vulnerability you are stepping into abundance consciousness. There is a choice to face the abandonment within knowing that what exists on the other side is freedom from a program of slavery and access to divine infinite potential. The armour that protects the vulnerable state is based on egoic construction and speaks of lies and deceit as a distraction from divinity that resides with all humanity. By letting go of those who do not support your belief in abundance consciousness on the external will free you from the slavery of expectation and resurrect you from being crucified to access an internal reality of light potential. This what is called en (in)-lightenment.